I am wasting my fucking life

[apolla]

Would someone please tell me what the fuck I'm supposed to do so that I don't completely waste my life?

Would you please tell me what to do so I can make some kind of fucking difference to the universe so that when I die, it means something?

Rather, so that I am not a complete waste of resource? That I might make some difference so that life doesn't suck so much as it does?

Comments

[annearchy.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you're feeling very much not okay, Clare. Is there some sort of volunteer work you might be interested in? That's the sort of thing that's usually considered "making a difference". I'm not sure what else to tell you except that I'm a bit worried about you, dear. *hugs*

[apolla.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for something bigger than that. Possibly for God to just open up the heavens and say "oi, do this". Not that God exists, of course.

Don't be worried about me. I survive.